KAtrInA

I see it...
Tears, hurt, pain
I see it all, I yearn to hold you
But I know this can never be
Why would you turn away?
I didn't mean to take it all from you
I didn't mean to hurt you so
This is how I have always been
Created by the God you love
I don't know if I was ever nice
I have always always been...
You'll call me cruel
It seems I was created that way 
Destined to hurt you, my love love
I have hands that destroy
I have feet that cause terror
I love my love yet you see me and run away
You can not handle my weight of my passion

My passion is such you have never seen
I love to the last until I am spent
I burn and consume and spin and roll
I move with the intensity of light and thunder
You think I am hard
No love, no
When you get into the eye of my heart
You'll see the calm still longing in my heart
I don't want to hurt you
Please, believe me
Please, don't go away
I need to speak to you my love
I left the serene west coast of Africa to see you
I didn't know what i would say when I finally saw you
I just knew I had to come
And I did cross the Caribbean and came to where you were

 You see me walk towards you in the distance
Wait, don't turn and walk away from me
I thought you were ignoring me
And I hurri to catch up with you
But no, you turn to look back at me
And I see the fear
Stark terror in your eyes
Your cane held up in self defence
I know I have hurt you before
I just can't seem to help myself
You aren't just walking away
Why are you running from me?
Why? Why can't you just stay with me?
A few seconds, a few minutes
nano seconds if you'll let me
I'm desperate, I need to understand you
The rage is flowing from my insides
I can't help it, I'm helpless to stop it
I weep...
I'm sorry
I will hurt you again...
The anger rages within me, I struggle
It will rain out of me
Yet my fury is clear and white
I hear you scream
I make you weak 
I make you feel insignificant
I make you feel helpless
We are both helpless
Bound to who we are
A union you despise
One I want yet will never have
I scream, "run!"
I will hurt you
And I lash out at you, 
shattering your china and frames
That new TV and stereo set you bought last week
This is me,
I am my best when I do this,
I am me
I hurt that I hurt you
but I can't help it...
This is who I am, I am my best when I let go


Hours later I can't find you
I relax into calm
My fury is gone
I am spent and
And I am leaving
I see someone in the distance
She's holding something in front of her
Talking into it
Pointing at me
She's crying
Blonde hair pulled back
She called me...
"Katrina"